My story by Emma

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I first attended happy mums when my daughter was about 5 months old. I came because I was dealing with post-natal depression following an admission to hospital with my daughter for bronchiolitis. It was by far the most scary, and helpless I ever felt, and from there I started to experience dark spiralling thoughts and feelings. My anxiety sky-rocketed and I felt that things were closing in around me.

The first time I went to Happy Mums, I remember having such an anxiety attack in the car park. I ran from the car to the door several times before finding the courage to knock. Looking back it was the best decision I made. I was greeted by friendly Katherine and Amy who took me under their wing and looked after me. I sat in the face to face group listening to other mothers talk about REAL feelings. At first I was surprised, as I had no idea that some of the things I was feeling were normal! I knew from then I was in the right place.

 

I never realised how talking to other mums could have such a massive positive impact, knowing that you are not alone. It was and still is a safe place to vent about your true feelings without judgement something which society doesn't want to hear about mostly. I suffered with things like: ongoing sickness post-pregnancy, return to work related stress, the feeling of not wanting to be around my daughter, feeling constantly angry towards everything, and many more complex issues we deal with as mothers. I guess I didn't realise how much having a baby changes YOU psychologically.

 

I have made some wonderful close friends at Happy Mums, and I now think of them as part of my family, because without them I don't know where I would be today. My daughter is nearly 2 and the support I have received has been amazing. Each week I take part in zoom support groups and hope that other mums can feel that if they need any help and support they can come and join the Happy Mums family.